Blogging because i have nothing to do

well xmas was awesome yesterday haha. havent stayed up for 24 hrs in a long time.

i wonder how it feels like to be one of those people who look "hot"...like have people starring at you. I dont have low self esteem, its just something that i think about. how do they have it? is it hard for them to get a significant other? do they have confidence or is it cockiness. how does society define hot? washboard abs, long blonde wavy hair? i wonder how it feels like to be a celebrity. i mean they wake up and yea i know they have to act, but still what do they think on their off days? how much money am i going to spend today?

Jan is coming up and im kinda getting nervous...

need to start working out again, but im too lazy haha